Mindfulness Meditation May Have Saved My Life
Twenty five years ago, if you asked me what I would be doing today, I probably would have said, “Wall Street executive, real estate professional, or retired and working on my golf game”.
I never thought I would be a Mindfulness Meditation Instructor. But that is what I am doing now, and I really enjoy it.
It all started in April, 2003. The internet bubble popped and took the economy with it. I lost my job as a stock trader and my wife was pregnant with our first child.
With very few contacts and the job market shrinking, I felt completely helpless.
I started to obsess about the future. “How am I going to get another job? How am I going to pay the mortgage? Will I be able to support my family? If I can’t get another job, where will we live? Are we going to have to live on the street? Where will we get food?”
I was also pissed off about the past. “How come I got laid off? Why didn’t that other asshole get canned? What a jerk my boss was.”
These thoughts wouldn’t stop. They just kept coming, one after the other. My mind would race from one worrisome thought to the next. I would lie in bed at night and stare at the ceiling unable to fall asleep.
I started to drink a lot. This was my way of “checking out”. At the time it seemed like the only way I could calm my mind.
Then one day, while sitting at my desk, my heart began to race uncontrollably. I started to feel numb on my left side. I began to sweat profusely. I didn’t know what was going on. “I think I am having a heart attack.”
As it turns out, I didn’t have a heart attack. I had suffered a severe anxiety attack. I questioned my ability to function with such acute anxiety. My confidence was shot, and I knew it showed in every conversation that I had.
I finally decided to take some action. I started going to therapy and taking prescription anxiety medication. This helped me sleep and many of my negative thoughts seemed a little less intense. However, I felt like this was just a small band-aid on a large gaping wound.
At about this time a relative suggested I try Mindfulness Based Stress Reduction Meditation. I had no idea what this was. I heard the term meditation and the first thing that popped into my mind was a vision of a bald man, wearing robes, sitting on a mountain while chanting. Regardless of my preconceived notions, I was ready to try anything at this point.
I went in with an open mind, and practiced diligently everyday. I found the practice to be transformative. Within a relatively short period of time, I stopped going to therapy and taking medication.
I have been practicing Mindfulness Meditation for over 12 years now.
I founded www.TheMindfulAdvantage.com to teach others how mindfulness can improve their lives. Mindfulness is scientifically proven to lower stress, increase focus, boost productivity, aid decision making, and enhance creativity.
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I am a former Wall Street professional turned personal and corporate Mindfulness meditation instructor. I teach smart, forward-thinking people and organizations how to harness the power of Mindfulness to manage stress, boost focus, regulate emotional responsiveness, enhance creativity and realize a host of other incredible benefits. All of this bolsters both the personal and corporate bottom line. I have worked with C-Suite executives, Fortune 500 companies, schools, and athletes. I can teach you and your employees how to attain all of the above. Contact me to learn more. JimPosner@TheMindfulAdvantage.com. 1–917–334–1776.
I am also the founder of www.TheDontPanicProject.com Engaging conversations that educate, inspire and empower people suffering from anxiety disorders and depression.
Originally published at www.themindfuladvantage.com on December 12, 2015.
Originally published at medium.com on July 5, 2017.