My big fat life goes on

Saturday. 4th day in London. Still in a Hostel.

Here I am, sitting in a Pub, alone with my resting bitch face and a Sex on the beach in a Mason jar. Yep, i feel like a real hipster in his sadest moments.

I lost my Oyster Card. My god, could please something work out? It is way harder to find a room in London than i actually thought. Not, because there are no rooms available. It’s more, because it’s hard to find someone that you could actually consider to live with.

At this point I’m already sipping on my second Sex on the beach. The Pub is part of my Hostel and that means, that I get all the drinks cheaper and that is by the way not a good thing. Well, not a good thing for my Budget, but great for myself.

There is a dude next to me at a table with a lot of back hair. He obviously tried to hide it, since it’s perfectly shaved like the collar of his shirt, just not low enough.

I feel the urge to go over and tell him about it, but I don’t want to be rude and make him feel uncomfortable. So i just take another sip of my delicious cocktail.

I feel really „Sex and the City“ like at the moment. Well without Friends. I don’t have Friends yet, but I’m getting there! I guess I would be Miranda. Yeah, probably not the most positive character of the Series, but it’s all about being honest on here so yes: I’m extremly cynical.

Wow, this is getting really depressing. I should throw a cute kitten picture in here to brighten up the mood a bit!

Great! I feel much better. Even though I don’t really like cats but thats another story.

Back to Miranda. There’s one thing she said, that I can really relate to: „Sexy is the thing I try to get them to see me as, after I win them over with my Personality.“

I have this weird thing: I’m fascinated by „sexy“ women. That sounds probably weird and maybe I’m the only one who feels like that, but they fascinate me. This women, who just walk down the street, without Make up, but with their natural „sexy“ apperance, while I’m trying not to stumble over my own feet and hoping people can’t see my that huge pimple on my chin.

I’ve never been one of this „sexy“ girls and I’m fine with it, but I would not say no, if I could get just a bit of their natural confidence.