Living With Intention: Day 2

This is part of my 30 day challenge to de-zombify myself. If you want to know what that means, click this link.

Guys, getting things done is fucking hard.

It’s 1:05 AM when I’m writing this post. One of the things I am proud of is that I have committed to this time of reflection, even if the actual challenges aren’t quite getting done. It means I have some skin in the game.

Improvement is good, but falling short is not. Can only get better!

Here is what I tried to do yesterday:

Before Noon:
Meditate for 30 minutes.
Get lesson schedule for this week (I schedule lessons for the clarinet studio on behalf of my teacher)
Leave for school.
Noon — 4:00 PM
Practice clarinet for about an hour or so, leaving school at 1 for…
Gig @ 2 PM. I like money.
4:00–8:00 PM
Finish essay!
If the weather’s nice again, take a walk outside, because walks are good.
Record and submit audition video (I love recording…)
8:00 PM — Bed
Hopefully I will be able to have the video and application submitted by this point.
Sleep.

Derp. This is my lesson learned to actually look at my schedule in the morning, so I can remember the things I type when it’s late. Definitely didn’t text my teacher. Lessons should be Wednesday and Thursday, so I’m not worried, but I still dropped the ball.

Also definitely didn’t meditate. If you read the blog that kicked this whole gem off, you may have noticed that I mention that I procrastinated hard with a game I play on my phone. This happened again this morning — I do miraculous mental gymnastics to convince myself that I can spend 25 minutes or an hour to myself in the morning before I get started, which isn’t inherently bad. The problem is that this almost always turns into Vainglory time. Here is a picture of what I am talking about:

A MOBA for mobile. Too addicting for my own good.

Long story short, Vainglory is a game where you fight other players to win or lose ~25 minute deathmatches. The game has a sneaky way of snowballing on you. When you lose, you want to get the sour feeling of loss out of your system by playing another game and winning. When you win, you want to continue the good feelings of winning by playing another game. It’s eerily similar to the feelings you get when you gamble on things, which just makes me shudder to type.

I’ve had many battles with this game, and have uninstalled it several times only to reinstall it again weeks or even days later.

But today, I’m going to uninstall it.

Actually, I’m going to do that right now.

— Leaving —

It’s done! I’m going to commit to at the least, not install it again until I finish this challenge. *thumbsup*

Long story short, (I’m tired) little Vainglory “breaks” set me back several hours, and resulted in me arriving home at 1 AM. So no more of that.

Okay.

Here’s tomorrow:

Before Noon:

  1. Check this list! Derp.
  2. Sleep is good. Do that.
  3. Head to school earlier than I need to. 9:30 AM Stretch goal, 10:30 AM at the latest.
  4. ACTUALLY text my teacher this time.
  5. Email Barli about a meeting.

Noon — 4:00 PM

  1. Check out the video camera for tonight’s Fischoff recording session.
  2. Britten Class from 12:30–2:15!
  3. Write the blog!

4:00–8:00 PM

  1. (Hopefully) Meet with Barli.
  2. Finish up the blog and post it.
  3. 7 PM — Record!

8:00 PM — Bed

  1. Stumble home after having my soul drained from two hours of recording.
  2. Sleep.

Been loving the support, guys. If you’d like to email me directly, my contact form is here.

See you tomorrow,

John

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