It’s one of those nights.
You put on music, unfollow everything on your facebook, unlike every page and pray nobody notices because you can’t bear to cause them discomfort or confusion.
So why do it in the first place?
Im not sure I’ll ever understand why I have to. It’s not jealousy, it’s not to make a statement or because I think I’m better.
In fact I think its based in trying to hold on to something real. A world where I have to ask my sister what she’s up to before seeing it on a webpage. A world where I have to take an interest in my girlfriend’s work instead of seeing her successes and likes then feeling like she’s better than I am and I’m a failure.
How else are you supposed to feel when someone with a quarter of your following gets double your likes?
It promotes a shitty mentality based on likes, popularity and value tied to those things.
I can’t deal with modern media, people say it’s rolling forward and keeping with the times. In reality we’re creating an unlimited feedback loop where if used correctly is a wonderful tool, but left unchecked gives us no control, no direction, no focus in our day to day lives.
I don’t want to be bombarded by meaningless memes that people post while taking a shit or lying in bed. I don’t want to be subjected to the gloating of every single fucking achievement of every single person who ever existed ever.
I see more of the random 17 year old Mexican kid who added me for photography tips than I do of my own family and close friends.
I’m so tired of living in a web based world that promotes instant gratification, likes for likes and follows for follows.
Cut me I bleed here folks. I want lifelong relationships, real people I can talk to and hold dear.
Facebook is a wonderful tool when you curate it, but if you don’t you’ll be left in a sea of meaningless bullshit that offers no value other than to waste your time.