I need to aggressively escalate

but not directly to a kiss. Go for her hand, hold hands, then escalate from there. Also, one other thing, if you are going to go for the kiss, do it. Don’t go for a hug, then a kiss. That is fucking weird. Either do it or not. Don’t be afraid to go for it. But don’t make it an after thought. Everything with you these days are an afterthought. But i’m happy that you went for it, she wasn’t totally into it, but I think I can hold her hand and flirt with her.

The date with michelle was a good date. Everything is just good, I was thinking I was going to say awesome but it was actually refreshing. I didn’t feel like I had to eimpress her or put on a ahow or try to stick it to her. I honestly don’t like to have to be so cocky all the time. Why can’t I be myself. There is this idea that you have to be alpha, be a man, be a leader. Those are the types that get all the girls. While it’s true, do you want to be that person. Can you get a hot girl while being beta. That is the true question.

Like I said yesterday, no more beta days. Go after what you want, when you want and don’t give a fuck. Just go for it, if it doesn’t work out. That’s ok, you will be in a better place than where you started.

I got stood up by Moondio, and finished Master of None. I really liked the ending, I thought he was going to chase after her, but instead went to pasta school. That is inspriing and we should go after what we want. Don’t be scared, do it. Go after it! Have no fears, as being scared is awesome!