Keeping it on myself

I imagine myself gratuated from the university where I started my dream and hoping it to come true. I imagine myself being the bread winner of the family. I imagine myself walking down the aisle marrying the man i really love, I imagine myself having child, I imagine myself being a mother.

In short I imagine myself happy. I wander if that imaginations will happen, I wander if I will be really happy. Its not that I feel sad but its because I feel so empty. I feel lack of emotions, i did not feel happy nor sad. I feel empty, I feel alone, I feel lonely.

No one can see it, even my family. In front of them I acted like I’m okay, in front of them I smile, I laugh and I prented that there’s nothing wrong, when i fact I’m miserable.