I’m sorry if I made it seem like I was missing the point. I just think you need to give yourself a break. As for your child sleeping… have you tried soft classical music? Playing it softly in the room — give it 20–30 minutes and see if the magic happens. A warm bath (lavender soap) and then put your baby in the crib, start the music and walk away. That used to work for our son. I apologize for not being more help. I was always depressed during the pregnancy. Women who talk about how wonderful pregnancy is/was… I firmly believe they are all on drugs. I truly hope things get better soon and there was more I could do or suggest.