Because I feel like it!
I am a very logical person……
I got to a point where I was tired of making sense of things. I was tired of needing an excuse or reason to not do something or not go somewhere or even not pick up my phone. I felt obligated to myself to make sense of my actions. I never really cared about the feelings of others involved, I just wanted to make sense to myself.
I wanted to follow my intuition! I wanted to listen to my mind, body, and spirit. I wanted to do what felt good until it no longer felt good. I no longer cared about making sense. I wanted to eat what made me feel good. Listen to what made me feel good. Be in places that made me feel good…..
I stopped making commitments. I’d tell most people that I’d have to evaluate how I felt the day of to see if I felt like it. This worked WONDERS! I felt so alive and free. I began to really trust my judgement and my internal compass. The more I leaned on my intuition over logic, the louder it spoke to me. I listened to what my body needed as it was needed. Id stop as I saw fit.
- I stopped eating dairy because it made me feel horrible for days.
- I changed my overall diet to eat things that make me feel alive and energized after I ate.
- I stopped drinking coffee because I felt dependent. I never started back drinking it because I felt amazing without it.
- I stopped drinking alcohol everyday because I wanted to feel things. I no longer wanted to suppress ANYTHING.
- I stopped talking to certain people just because they were my family.
- I stopped explaining myself.
- I stopped taking medicines.
- I started to take longer showers or baths. I added candles and music.
- I started to eat outside in the sun.
- I started to wear what I felt in the mood for, not what was “appropriate.”
- I started to meditate.
- I started to put my phone down.
- I started going to the chiropractor.
- I started taking probiotics (I live by them now)
- I started to explain my feelings more to people I cared about and stopped explaining to people that didn’t matter.
The only time I experienced confusion was with “Love” I wanted to be “loved” on my own terms. This is where morally I felt a need to adjust some because its unfair to others to pop up to be loved then disappear “Because I feel like it”
