I’ve been thinking about you.

I’ve been wondering what it will feel like when we finally embrace.

I lie awake at night imagining closing my eyes and getting lost in you.

My heart starts beating faster, fear mixes with a longing for a deeper love, not bound by flesh. Unconditional in its finality.

I know I’ll have no choice but to surrender. To finally let go, after all this time trying to hold on to what’s good, what’s real, to peace.

I’m scared.

This is bigger than my mind and body can hold.

I am life.

You are death.

Or is or the other way around?

This piece was written in the RiteAid parking lot, waiting for the store to open at 8am. I gave myself a 5 minute writing challenge. Now off to get ear drops.