10 Things I Know To Be True

Totally stole this idea from Spoken word poet Sarah Kay. Hopefully it helps me process all these New Years feelings.

1. I know that it’s hard being the person who cares so deeply. Getting your heart stomped on is no fun.
2. I know that having goals doesn’t always mean you’ll achieve them. They change and that’s ok.
3. I know that I probably should’ve applied to school a while ago, considering every thing I want to do will certainly be easier with a degree.
4. I know that life is hard, and people are harder.
5. I know that I have a big problem with trying to impress people. I care too much about their opinions and feel like a loser when I do something that may effect their opinion of me.
6. I care a lot about a lot of different things. Government, politics, the military, documentary films, my faith, my family and friends: maybe I’m a little stretched thin…

7. I feel like a failure because I’m not where I want to be or doing the. things I want to do right now.

8. It is hard to be a person like me in this world. Someone who loves much and gives everything I have to everything I do and everyone I know. It sucks to be a person like me.

9. I place too much stock in other people’s opinions of me and what I’m doing and what I love. Someone can say the smallest thing and it puts me off for days.

10. I am loved. Irrevocably and totally by a lot of people. I just don’t feel like it all the time.

I’m sorry that this is a little disjointed. I just needed to get it off my chest. The past few days have been hard to say the least and I need to write about it. I don’t even care if anyone reads it, it’s out in the world now, so here you go. You can have it.