I dont have a whole lot to write about today. I have finally accepted the fact that I need accpt employment at some agency or corporation, that my independence as an artist and many other things really is not going to happen at this moment. No matter how many people like my art, or talk about it, or even show others the pictures of my art. In the end, if nobody buys my art, then I am stuck without having, without having the ability to pay bills, feed myself or my children, or generally exist. So now I was seek outside employment, and this means, I will have less time, less energy, less inspiration to create. This saddens me. but it is what it is.