Just some thoughts
I suffer from Depression and Avoidant Personality Disorder. I don’t know how many who read this will understand how hard it is to admit that in public. With bullying on the internet being the norm, opening up about real issues is becoming lost. Suicide is a major topic. One that has a stigma about it that this new culture of bullying has dropped into the laps of those suffering. I attempted suicide nearly 17 years ago. I failed, and I wish I could say that I am glad I failed, but I am not going to lie here. I cut for years(still have an arm and leg full of scars to remind me). I even went through a brief alcoholic phase to try and escape. I was existing in this little cocoon of my reality. Not quite happy, not quite sad, just existing. Then a trauma happened nearly two year ago that I have still not recovered from. Even through therapy and medication, I struggle, as I feel I have lost me. I can honestly say I have no clue who I really am anymore. It just takes seconds for life to fall apart. I’m going to stop here on this. As the title says, random thoughts. I will be back with more stuff later on. Thank you for reading.