Thank you for your honesty. You seem to have a good grasp of your reality now. You should be very proud of yourself. My oldest son is an alcoholic. He does it for many of the same reasons: fear, sadness, happiness, forgetting, and avoidance. He has hit rock bottom more than a few times but doesn’t seem to understand that he needs help. I blame myself, his father, the Marines, war, society, the universe, and anyone else that has done him wrong. I don’t, however, blame him. I know blame is not what he needs. He needs to take responsibility for his actions. How does that happen? When does that happen? Will it happen? Thanks for listening.