‘This sounds so simple that I feel somewhat embarrassed that it took me so long to figure out.’ — I think everything happens just at the right time, Matt. You went through a series of experiences that suddenly brought you to realisation. It’s not easy to figure things out when you don’t know what’s going on, so I would commend you for reaching this point, for you have already found the problem, and that’s such a big win. The solution will come to you.
It’s interesting you say this has been brought on by the fact that you play it safe. See, I’m the complete opposite — I like to run wild, do silly things, make bold choices (all within a reason of course), but I always felt like that detracted me from a goal (which I didn’t quite have figured out). I’m all over the place, everywhere. Well, but perhaps being in chaos, we can begin to narrow things down and find out what and who we really are and what we want?