EXCUSE MY TIMING
Please excuse my timing, as I had a couple of tasking work errands to deal with. I actually had a brief window to write you but you see, a guy like me doesn’t rush words towards a lady like you; I shut out the noise when putting pen to paper so these verses can resonate in the deepest recesses of your senses. I say this as a renaissance man because anytime i write someone, there’s a chance it might be the start of something special.
You once talked about being happy with how things are going for you right now; you being closer to God, securing a better Job and hoping you come across a guy that’s as happy with his feat, also looking for a serious relationship. I know you’ve come a long way and I acknowledge your achievements, realizing you’re destined for greater things to come. I understand what you meant by not expecting to find someone who likes everything you do but someone who actually has a compatible personality and shares similar interests/ goals with you. That being said, I’d want you to know that I’m open to exploring things my future partner might be interested in as I am well aware it builds intimacy on a different level.
Thinking of intimacy takes me back to experiences from my first relationship. We were on similar paths but my head was in the clouds and by the time i realized what went wrong, it had gone sour. A lot of back and forths trying to salvage whatever we had left till I realized it was time to let go. Heart sunken and all after maximum vulnerability but the experience made me emotionally mature. Taught me that relationships generally come in an entire package of ecstatic romance, fun, intimacy and at the same time, arguments. Arguments that become fights that sometimes lead to break ups, that you get to stand tall after if you realize the importance of not dwelling in the past but rather celebrating endings, as they precede new beginnings. This translates into not crying because it’s over but smiling because it happened. I hear you’re looking for a new beginning, how’s that going? I guess we’re all out there searching for that someone. For me i’d say; the one who is present and free to enjoy every moment to its fullest, has the passion for and a positive outlook on life, intelligent and open minded; the woman who is attracted by inner beauty as much as what’s on the outside. The woman who appreciates her man and encourages his continual growth; A lady knows how to treat a gentleman.
I find myself thinking about you, more often than not and although it’s a strange feeling for someone I just met, it feels divine, simply because you satisfy my thoughts. Thoughts of spending time with you on our first date. Sitting side by side rather than across from you because I want your scent to ignite my olfactory nerve, so if I ever come across it again, today’s memory will live for tomorrow’s nostalgia. Thoughts of gazing at you while you make your signature shy smirk simply because you wouldn’t let my eyes see through you. A little mystery is good for the soul so I give you a subtle peck, while I stroke your braids behind your ear, insinuating I’m fine with it for now and knowing that in due time, you’d let me in. Thoughts of our first kiss happening in the moment, as I bid you goodnight while struggling to let go of you because of the invisible force of attraction in between us, as I stand north to you, and you, south to me. Thoughts of my tongue in your mouth, savoring what we just had for dinner, while goosebumps erupt on your inner thighs. I’m nervous but I hope everything falls into place. Hope you recognize that the idea of you in such proximity to me brings me to climax without sex and you do it all with regal grace. This letter took twelve minutes to write, how long before you realize that if these words appeal to you, it’s because I find you enthralling, as they are a reflection of my mind; an integral part of me?