I’m moaning, complaining, raging over meaningful and futile life’s uncomfortable situations. I want control over everything. I’m going from being aware to unaware constantly, depending on my sleeping, eating, and exercising routine. I’m losing focus, drive, motivation, and hope, as quickly as I give up on my self-care when it becomes too difficult to put in place, I swear. I’m losing myself in comparison, other people’s image and their lives which I really don’t care about.