“The world has never felt safe to me.” This one sentence says it all. Fear and anxiety sit with me constantly as well. It stops me from making commitments to anyone or anything, except for those damn addictions. I share a very similar history, with the added nightmare of domestic violence thrown in to the mix. Therapy keeps me functioning whilst I deal with all the other health shit that’s been thrown at me in recent years. I do wonder if there is a link? The brain is a powerful and often misunderstood tool, that still remains an enigma to the medical and scientific communities.
Thanks for sharing. You are always more eloquent and open then I can ever hope to be.