I haven’t had sex in like…..forever

Have you ever dug a hole so deep that you couldn’t get out of?

Sex is just one of those things, you know, in my society it’s this big taboo, almost everyone does it and the funny thing is everyone assumes I’ve done it too but the truth is I haven’t had sex in a long time, 6,455 days to be exact.

Over the years I’ve experimented with the idea of reinvention, so a lot of people who know me usually know me as, a sweet little shy boy(my real self), the playboy type boy(invented) and for the sake of your enjoyment when reading this, lets call invented me, Brad(No offense to Brads). The well known one is definitely the former and I have regretted it a lot, but it does have it’s benefits.

I was Brad for about four years, I killed him in second year of SHS(suicide?), he comes back to life from time to time but he’s mostly a shadow of himself so good for me.My main problem with Brad is that he’s rude, sarcastic, untrustworthy and it is because of this that people I care about find it hard to trust me, especially girls and understandably so, because the number of girls he went out with, boy oh boy, his crush even asked if he was using some kind of voodoo(It was that bad). So, I thought if maybe Brad was dead, everything will return to normal, but see, the problem was, Brad and I happened to share the same body, so even if I changed, if you ask someone about Lawrence Logoh they will probably describe Brad.

Everyone thought Brad was very sexually active, I dare say some people were attracted to him(yes, boys included) because of this and Brad would let them think this, because it gave him more opportunities and who doesn’t love opportunities.Lawrence on the other hand, and I don’t use this word lightly, feared girls, Lawrence didn’t do sexual stuff with girls, he was shy, awkward and the closest thing he had to girlfriends were, Hinata(from Naruto) and Inoue(from Bleach) .

The whole point of this is to say, I have not had sex……yet, I want to(who doesn’t) but I happen to be a very sentimental person when it comes to these issues and I want my first time to be special and to be with someone I actually like, not the gullible girls that Brad attracted.