Same Field, Different Games

It’ll be over soon.

I can feel it.

We’ll be out of here and nothing else about this place will matter.

There’s little here anymore.

Mainly pain and foul memories and fear.

We’ll start fresh, I tell myself.

It will be the second or third or fourth fresh start — depending on how you look at it.

But this time will be different, I’m sure of it.

I’ll do things better this time.

I will.

I’ll only do things with intention.

I’ll be a better mom, a better wife, a better friend.

I’ll only take on new friendships that will challenge me and help me grow, and ones where I can do the same for another—real friendships.

That’s what I said when we bought our house and moved here, I know.

I said would stop making the same mistakes again and again.

Yet here I am, making the same friends, breaking the same bonds.

Here I am repeating everything in different ways because I did get older and little bit smarter, but the playing field was laid out in all the same ways.

I fell back in, again.

Not this time, I promise myself.

This time will be different.

I’ll come up with a set of rules — not normal rules, rules that will work.

I’ll come up with positive, progressive rules to help myself shift the layout of the new playing field.

It can happen, I know.

It will happen, I can feel it.

(It’ll all be over soon.)


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