Letting Go pt. 2
It’s been awhile since my last post, I was taking time off to get things straight in my head. I’m not sure if I mentioned in my last post but the guy I was talking to texted me saying we shouldn’t talk anymore because he met someone else and I deserve more then half a man. I’m not sure what exactly that means. It hurt a lot more then I thought it would.
Not I know that it was for the best, he would never have been what I needed or even wanted. I need someone who has some of the same interests as I do. Someone who likes me and respects the people in my life, at least a little.
I think it hurt so bad because I was building someone up in my head that never would have happened. For awhile I thought there was something wrong with me, something that made people leave me. Then I realized there is nothing wrong with me, it was not meant to be. I’m not meant to be with him, when I find the right person they won’t treat me the way he treated me. They will treat me the way I deserve to be treated.
I deleted his phone number and told him to delete mine. I’m not sure if I believe he met someone or he just needed a good reason to leave, maybe he wanted me to hate him to make it easy. But I don’t, I don’t hate him. I feel sorry for him, he is punishing him for his past. Everyone makes mistakes most of the time it is something we chose to do. He had other choice, it was his job. I hope one day he can forgive himself and move forward
Now it’s time to move forward, take every step slowly to embrace new thing and find happiness. Through all of this I’ve realized I can’t look for happiness in someone(I’ve known it for a long time but finally accepted it) I need to find happiness in myself. I need to be content in life and have the ability to be alone and be happy. I think I’ve started that, for once in my life I don’t feel like I need a man in my life. Like every girl I want one, I do not NEED one and that is very comforting and takes stress away.
No one is perfect everyone has a past, some worse then others, but you should never let that define you no matter what. You have to find a way to accept it and move in. Don’t dwell, pick yourself up and know things will get better.
“You can’t just give up on someone because the situation is not ideal. Great relationships aren’t great because they have no problems they’re great because both people care enough about the other person to find a way to make it work.”
🌜Adieu pour l’instant🌛