“Exercise gives you endorphins. Endorphins make you happy. Happy people just don’t shoot their husbands”.

Exercise. Ugh. Nothing I despise more than running and sweating. Serisously the worst. But as Elle Woods says, endorphins make you happy and I don’t want to shoot my husband so I must exercise.

So very recently I hit a low… or a high I suppose. A high in weight. Never in all my years have I been this heavy. And I owe it all to depressions. Thanks depression. You always know how to make my tummy grumble for late night cookies, chips, or anything unhealthy I can get my pudgy fingers on. But I am determined to make a change and get back to a relatively healthy weight and stop the late night cookies. Cause imma be real here, not not eating cookies just isn’t gonna happen.

Ah, so depression. If you’ve ever battled it, you know the tolls it can take on your life. It’s a nasty beast that likes to burden you constantly. I blame this most recent bout of depression on my lack of a good job and a constant rejections. As I previously said, I am average. Blindingly average and couldn’t land a decent job. Still searching for one too. Not to mention the lack of social life and love life. So that rejection and ample time took its toll and left me down in the dumps. I recognize these dumps. I’ve been here before a few years back. But I climbed out and moved on. So I must do the same now.

I recall my last intense depression and how I made it out. Exercise! I hated it then too but after a few months of antidepressants only masking my issues I opened up a gym membership, had a training session, and got into a grove. And ya know what? I felt ok. I stopped medications (which is a pain!) and let working out be my mood lifter. AND IT WORKED! I had a goal and something to work towards (looking good in a bathing suit and tight dresses for Vegas), and achieved it. I looked smoking. And most importantly, I was happy.

So here I am now, 2 or 3 years later, whale sized and unhappy. I very recently opened up a membership to a new Planet Fitness (plug) and already feel an uplift. They pride themselves on judgment free zone which is great for someone like me who looks like they are about to die after 5 minutes on an elliptical going the slowest possible pace. I’ve only gone a few times and although I hate it and want to give up after 10 minutes, I keep pushing myself for me. I don’t have a Vegas or vacation goal I’m working towards this time (unless you want to plan a Vegas trip with me cause I’m totally down), but I do have the goal to get those health endorphin chemicals flowing up in this body.

I know I have an insanely long ways to go before I look good in that red dress again but I’m up to the challenge. Being active is key to being happy and learning to be happy with myself is why I’m here. So join me (I can bring guests!), give me tips and pointers on successful work outs, and share positive vibes on the journey to a healthy, happy, above average life!

Much love!

Lina