The last time I was active here I was going through the worst thing I’ve ever been through and the myriad of emotions I felt then still sweep through me from time to time.

I don’t know what to do with it.

I know ignoring it isn’t seen as healthy but that’s what you do when the feeling of the ball in your throat is all too familiar that your brain barely even reacts; that’s what you do when your heart’s reaction to pain is to lay silent and blank.

The pain still hurts but it hurts different knowing I can’t do anything about it- can’t do anything but write.

I hope you journey with me in my truth and feel comforted or at least accompanied in the relative inevitable pains of life.

yours compassionately,

Amaka x