Ramblings..

Alize Malik
Aug 22, 2017 · 2 min read

Sometimes i just dont know where to go, what to do with myself.
Sometimes I just want to follow the flow of things, do what everyone else is doing, be just like everyone else because its so much easier.

Easier than answering all those questions and defending myself and reassuring everyone that im not crazy, im just not like everyone else.

Every person i’ve ever met has a different perception of me, of who i am.

I may be the shy quiet girl who stutters when you talk to her because she didn't think you would.

Sometimes i am that girl who asks too many questions and wants to know too much about you or tries too hard to agree with everything you say.

Some know me as the rebel, the wild one, with her untamed thoughts, conversations going from “its too hot outside” to spaceships and stars and how sometimes i lie to the ones i love to protect them or me or both or neither.

I think about my behavior with people, i think about the things i do, from the clothes i wear to the things i say and honestly im so diffrent with every single person i meet, i dont know if its somewhat misleading or not but its just the way i am.
I am not the same with everyone.
I dont want to be.

But then people expect you to be the same way every single day, your either hyper or mellow, but that’s not true. Some days you might have had too much coffee of maybe your just feeling a bit lonely on particular days and some days your just ecstatic. Why must people judge behavior so mercilessly? As if i am faking it with one person or another. I just dont understand.

So then im compelled to tell myself that i need to be a certain way, talk in a particular manner because that how its done. Do what everyone else is doing, follow all the rules and its just so tiring being so normal and so.. unwierd. Its just so awfully boring.

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Alize Malik

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