The charms of peeing in your pants

I hate waking up in morning because of a full bladder. It is the most irritating thing in the world. You know you are sleepy, but peeing in your pants won’t really solve the problem, would it ? Peeing in your pants might have charms of its own, who knew ?

Hence if at night I feel like peeing or even sense that I might feel like it, I drag myself to the bathroom and do the deed, no matter how dead tired or sleepy I am.

Living alone for a long time makes you like that. There is no one to lean on to for anything that needs to be done (except the paid help I mean). There is no escape from the unavoidable and boring things and no one who might pamper or tolerate your whims. Your fucking whims come back soon enough to bite you back (should’ve peed before sleeping, wake the fuck up you jackass !!! No escape, see)

Living alone also makes you a little weird because you live majority of your time without the fear of being judged for absolutely anything. You have absolute privacy. You want to take a dump with the door open, be your own guest. You want to surf that weird page 3 celebrity gossip or even weirder level of porn, no one is going to judge you. Fart freely, masturbate openly, pick your nose to your heart’s content, scratch your groin till it feels better, you can do whatever you want to do.

After a while you do wonder, if it would be possible for you to share this space with someone else, and more importantly would that other person judge you. Obviously, during the initial phases you would try to be at your best behavior i.e. you will fart surreptitiously, masturbate (if required) in the toilet, pick your nose only when no one is looking and touch your groin only for smoothing down the creases on your boxers, but you doubt for how long would you be able to sustain that ?