The Morning after…

My eyes feel swollen and my mind feels like a blank canvass. I feel like a blank canvass. I grab my gown and manage to stumble to the bathroom. Outside my door is a big box of Fererro rocher, kettle crisps and a bottle of pepsi max. I guess i should be happy least he felt something and left that outside my door as an apology.

I don't though. I feel nothing but numbness. It’s a repeat of that learn behaviour…lashing out at women is okay and then when you see your mum breakdown you realise you're doing what you saw your dad do growing up. No its not okay my son. Im already broke and now you have become like one of those who broke me.