I tried meditating for an hour today and it was extremely difficult for me.
What was difficult was just sitting there doing nothing. I began to have anxiety over the fact that I was doing completely nothing for that hour and it made me realize how hard it is to just let go and simply be.
In the States, so much of our value is determined by our achievements, and we have been trained to believe that you can’t achieve much when you aren’t doing anything.
The only thing that I have control over is me and if I become happy with simply just bring myself, I’ll have a better chance at being consistently happy throught the ups and downs of the things that I can’t control.