Failing. Dying a little inside. Rejuvenating.
I failed… for a whole week…maybe more… to work on my 10 ideas a day, as well as my own personal projects.
Sht like that hits me HARD… I end up feeling like such a failure…
Even today… after all that talk the last few days… and all the Gary Vee stuff I’ve been watching.. I didn't really do much today.
At the same time, I'm not regretful; for the most part; especially after reading this:
At any given time, about 5% of Americans report symptoms of moderate or severe depression. Major depressive disorder is…www.businessinsider.com
Hence, both in an effort to still benefit from my moment of weakness, as well as practice gratitude, I'm going to share what I enjoyed about the day.
I enjoyed being wowed and amazed by nature.. by lil cute Porcupine sounds and other animal sounds… by talking about cannibalism in humans and the animal kingdom and sexual encounters… by expositing on the sentience of Dolphins and Octopi…
I enjoyed taking the time to take about 3Dweb and VR and MMO game design stuff with my folks on Discord…
I enjoyed watching Trap Nation and Gary Vee and Eric Thomas and Gameranx and Logan Paul and Philip DeFranco and SciShow and PBS Space Time and Dan Bull and ERB and Y Combinator and Chris Ramsay…
Though I did get some work done…
Today, the focus was on being able to realize that I enjoy days like this… when done sparingly… it's both a good refresher and a great re-up on the other sides of my passion.
I won't out work folks like Gary Vee. I won't become a Trillionaire or create the Empire i want to create trying to pretend as if I'm a hustler.
I can hustle. I have work ethic. But I'm most importantly a thinker. I like to strategize in terms of how hard I work and for what/who.
My advantage is going to be in ‘outsmarting’ the ‘competition’…
I'm going to reverse engineer my goals and build collaborative things that can catalyze and be the exponent to my level of hustle.
In so do doing… I will accomplish my goals MY way, with MY specific, unique, and perhaps even never-before-seen brand of passion.
That being said…. I do want to figure out how to be more effective with my time when I do hustle.
Here is where my ‘Penitence’ comes in…
Sharing stuff I am embarrassingly not ready to share.
I am going to create more articles similar to my Youtube for Podcasts piece… ie with unnecessarily detailed wireframes and in-depth feedback… but this time targeted for a specific company… First up, Yahoo!
I dont expect to get anything from it… besides a confidence in my skills and consistency in not just creating but also sharing my ideas. I might just get lucky… but I'm more banking on this being a personal project that I happen to be sharing online haha.
I also will spend a whole month researching and analyzing on political/economic ideologies… particularly socialism and capitalism. My goal for that is to just formulate my own opinion on their respective pros and cons. Mostly because I'm just tired of all the hate and bipartisan bias both of them get from the opposite ‘side’… I want to really go in (from my ‘heretic’ anarchist/non-politico view) and see what the fuss is about.
All the while, i want to continue my #JourneyToThe3Dweb via building out my Holodeck/3DWebVR site. Adding in animations, content, and hopefully a way for people to share the experience of ‘being’ there together. All in the browser. And maybe I’ll sneak in some Flubbi prototyping!
Those are my main 3 projects. Additionally, i want to help my Discord folks out in a gaming project they want to do… as well as some webfiction writing with my SO and with a group of folks on the WebFictionGuide forums…
I like the idea of sharing my intentions… No one reads this and applauds me for it…s o not like im spoiling myself… more like Im optimizing the chance for 1) someone coming by who will like to keep me accountable (even indirectly) 2) someone coming by and wanting to work with me (I wont bite!) 3) Documenting my journey for future reference.
Thanks for reading yet another example of me not knowing what I’m doing with this #Blogumentary stuff… but tis par the course of my #Pathofatrillionaire. :D