Thirsting for Conversation — Puzzles…

Day 6: Puzzling pieces with no puzzle picture…

Consistency is hard… particularly due to emotions… to motivation… what it does to you when you’re off balance… when you have a ‘bad day’… or even just a bad hour at the wrong time…

I dont have part two. Its not done, not even close… Im not sure how I can be so ‘on a roll’ the whole day then fall, get off track, so very surely and suddenly.

I dont know.

I dont know the problem… or the solution… I dont know what Im doing right now… or if what Im doing will add up to what I want to be doing. All I know is that im just putting things together… Moving, not matter what… forward? I hope so.

Im puzzled. My life feels like a puzzle… with no set pieces, just the ones Im left with. No end picture, just the one Im assembling… building… making up?

What do you do when you fall off the wagon? When you take a tumble and the train derails? When you fall short of …. something, anything.. nothing?

What do you do when you’ve created your own puzzle inside another puzzle from the lost pieces of some other puzzle?

Is it still a puzzle? Or just a jumble… a pile of scrap, of pieces, of useless stuff. Nothing.

Make art. I guess.. I think… I feel.

When all else fails, it is our creativity we are left with… however we see that creativity, however much we respect it, or believe in it… I have no idea where my creativity has gone, or rather I dont know where my motivation and emotional control to put that creativity to a specific use has gone… but its there.. somewhere.

In the puzzle… perhaps one of my own making…

Cryptic? Lost? Puzzled? Me too…

Thanks…