That’s unfortunate, but it has to be one of the best rationalizations for one’s own choice to explore unnatural behavior I’ve ever heard. The one thing you didn’t address is the inherent feeling of wrongness that still plagues you and drives you to need to self-justify, and not just you as an individual, but every single equivalent sexual deviant I have ever encountered and interviewed. They all share this underlying emptiness or lack of fulfillment, which is one of the biggest reasons they are such a statistically minute part of the population, while being one of the loudest voices…

Or, if you prefer, why does nearly every single homosexual feel a need to self-justify as reasonable and acceptable a choice, they and everyone around them knows inherently, at the most fundamental levels, to be unnatural?

THAT is the question that needs to be answered. The answer is already out there as well, I challenge you and all who make similar choices to find it.

Best of luck in your future adventures!