Why I don’t wanna date?

Palak Madhani ∞
Jul 23, 2017 · 2 min read

  • One of my friend asks me, why don’t I be with someone? Why don’t I like dating?
    So, tired debating but it was frustrating
    I tried explaining but it was just suffocating
    She told me how fascinating it is
    But I know how breathtaking it is
    So, I had tired it back
    It was better than great but soon hit an anxiety attack
    I didn’t know why? everything was great
    But at the end it is all about fate
    Nevermind, we ended up being good friends
    But yet for me he was one of those precious gems
    I told him again about how I feel
    But all I could hear was time will heal
    Ahh! Okay I took a deep breath explained myself that I have to let it go and forget it
    And be me not a mess kit
    So, after one year maybe, I went on an another date with the most most most beautiful soul on the earth
    Who was with me even before my birth
    And he once promised, that he’ll be there always
    When I heard this I was amazed
    And he kept his promise as he said
    When I saw him crying with pain, cuts and shivering on that hospital bed
    I ran there, asked him are you okay?
    He showed me his thumb and said always
    I had tears
    While he was smiling as he had lost all his fears
    He called me near, and said "if I go you will get someone who will love you more than me"
    I asked him with fright in my voice,"what if he’ll leave me just like you?"
    He smiled and everything got in line
    I yelled, calling out to him, give me an answer are you fine?
    No answer, no reply
    Everything blurred infront of my eye
    He didn’t even say bye
    Maybe he was shy
    I look at the sky
    Calling out to him every night, I say I miss you, come back but all I hear is my own cry
    So, whenever someone asks me why don’t I fall in love? I do
    I don’t show
    May be who I think will be my love will leave me
    And again I’ll be free
    But this is not how it goes
    I found good love at a bad time
    Bad love at a good time
    Maybe I’ll find love with filmy winds flying
    Maybe I’ll find love till on that bed dying
    Maybe I think love is a paradox I will never bend
    Maybe I think the man I love will leave me at the end
    But I fear love not hope
    Even when there is no scope
    So, I give it all a close
    And tell that friend....but it was all froze.

Palak Madhani ∞

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