Why I don’t wanna date?
Jul 23, 2017 · 2 min read
- One of my friend asks me, why don’t I be with someone? Why don’t I like dating?
So, tired debating but it was frustrating
I tried explaining but it was just suffocating
She told me how fascinating it is
But I know how breathtaking it is
So, I had tired it back
It was better than great but soon hit an anxiety attack
I didn’t know why? everything was great
But at the end it is all about fate
Nevermind, we ended up being good friends
But yet for me he was one of those precious gems
I told him again about how I feel
But all I could hear was time will heal
Ahh! Okay I took a deep breath explained myself that I have to let it go and forget it
And be me not a mess kit
So, after one year maybe, I went on an another date with the most most most beautiful soul on the earth
Who was with me even before my birth
And he once promised, that he’ll be there always
When I heard this I was amazed
And he kept his promise as he said
When I saw him crying with pain, cuts and shivering on that hospital bed
I ran there, asked him are you okay?
He showed me his thumb and said always
I had tears
While he was smiling as he had lost all his fears
He called me near, and said "if I go you will get someone who will love you more than me"
I asked him with fright in my voice,"what if he’ll leave me just like you?"
He smiled and everything got in line
I yelled, calling out to him, give me an answer are you fine?
No answer, no reply
Everything blurred infront of my eye
He didn’t even say bye
Maybe he was shy
I look at the sky
Calling out to him every night, I say I miss you, come back but all I hear is my own cry
So, whenever someone asks me why don’t I fall in love? I do
I don’t show
May be who I think will be my love will leave me
And again I’ll be free
But this is not how it goes
I found good love at a bad time
Bad love at a good time
Maybe I’ll find love with filmy winds flying
Maybe I’ll find love till on that bed dying
Maybe I think love is a paradox I will never bend
Maybe I think the man I love will leave me at the end
But I fear love not hope
Even when there is no scope
So, I give it all a close
And tell that friend....but it was all froze.
