FEAR OF CONFRONTATION

After incessant weeks of sleep deprivation, head-snapping and red bull as my primary source of fuel, all I desired, once classes were over, was to rest and shove my responsibilities aside. And I did. I tossed my philosophy course out the window, and by the end of two weeks, I was too busy with college applications to get back on track. When I could, however, I opted not do so. Not because I feared how much the workload had accumulated, but because I dreaded to confront my teacher.

It was then when I realized that I am afraid to confront others when I fail to meet the expectations they have of me. This behaviour has been particularly noticeable in the internship I had in Educa. Tae and I had decided to split the work; he would manage Facebook, and I would do the website. But the difference of workload between the two shortly began to show; while I took work home and stayed up until late at night, he was eating popcorn and watching movies. Even though I trust Tae, the expectation was set, so I preferred to take the toll and do the work rather than to confront him.

In the business world, where the conflict of interest is predominant, not confronting your peers or boss can lead you to swallow up work that you shouldn’t. This does not mean that one needs to be manipulative to obtain what one wants; it just means that one must stand up for oneself — and there is no reason to feel guilt for doing so.