30 reflective questions for the soul
When it is all said and done, I shall look back upon my life and smile broadly as I go to my final rest. Weary but satisfied.
At least, that is what I hope. Here are thirty questions that allow me to reflect. Found in an article By David K. William
1. Who am I really?
Well, if I knew that, things would be easier. Or well, they’d be less interesting at least. Getting to know myself and the world around me is all part of the journey. The process. For now, I’m a kind but dark soul who takes joy in helping others. But couldn’t care much for life in particular.
2. What worries me most about the future?
Not caring at all anymore. Completely and utter emptiness. Not even darkness left.
3. If this were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?
Writing is at least useful. Besides, I’ve got nothing more important to do right now. Nothing for my own benefit or the benefit of others.
4. What am I really scared of?
Losing my intellect. Without my wits, I am nothing. I can’t bear the idea of getting dementia or the like.
5. Am I holding on to something I need to let go of?
Lots of bodyweight, HA! On a more serious note, I cling to the idea that I want to die by age thirty. That’s probably not particularly healthy.
6. If not now, then when?
Sometime after I hit thirty.
7. What matters most in my life?
My friends and family, being there for them, no matter what.
8. What am I doing about the things that matter most in my life?
I go at it full force. Or so far as my willpower will take me. If you’re going to half-ass something, then you might as well not bother. At the same time, I could do more. Sleep less, get more done. Exercising for example is a thing I could improve upon.
9. What do I matter?
I don’t, none of us do. That’s the sad truth and beauty at the same time. There is no absolute meaning to life. No deity to console you. Just the cold darkness of reality surrounding you and the infinite possibility of shaping your own fate.
10. Have I done anything lately worth remembering?
Sure, I’ve designed some kick ass systems for users to interact with. To genuinely make their lives more enjoyable or to help them solve their problems. That’s pretty neat, no?
First ten, we made it! Onto the next!
11. Have I made someone smile today?
Several people in fact, a colleague, a stranger on the train and some friends of mine. I guess that’s pretty good for a day’s worth!
12. What have I given up on?
13. When did I last push the boundaries of my comfort zone?
A couple of months ago when I tried some space cake for the first time because a friend suggested it to me. That was an absolutely useless experience I may add, had no effect whatsoever. Next time I’ll up the dosage.
14. If I had to instill one piece of advice in a newborn baby’s mind, what advice would I give?
To never become jaded with life or the people around you and to always keep exploring.
15. What small act of kindness was I once shown that I will never forget?
We were taken in once by an old lady who lived close to us. Me and my friend had gotten lost playing outside in the gardens and we weren’t even far from home. But we couldn’t get back in. She tooks us in and gave us something to drink and cookies, then called our parents (whom she knew apparently).
16. How shall I live, knowing I will die?
No real difference. I would welcome death, whenever it may come. But, I might not waste as much time. If I were immortal, I’d procrastinate way more I believe.
17. What do I need to change about myself?
My fortitude in sticking with my exercise routines. Perhaps to be less gloom at times as well. But it has its ups and downs.
18. Is it more important to love or be loved?
To love. Because I can control that. I can’t control how much other people love me (there’s only so little you can do about that).
19. How many of my friends would I trust with my life?
Two. Maybe three. However, whenever I play these trust games. For example the ones where you let yourself fall to the ground. I never seem to be able to let go completely. Control freak I guess.
20. Who has had the greatest impact on my life?
My parents, through their divorce and their teachings to always keep questioning things.
21. Would I break the law to save a loved one?
Without a doubt. Rules are made to be broken. What else is there?
Ha! We did eleven there. Final nine incoming.
22. Would I steal to feed a starving child?
Depends on the child and the situation. Preferably, I would just purchase food instead. Duh!
23. What do I want most in life?
To keep exploring and growing. To find new places, meet new people and keep looking for meaning.
24. What is life calling of me?
To help others through my solutions or by just opening their eyes to new possibilities. Listening first and foremost. Then questioning and perhaps then offering my take on things.
25. Which is worse: failing or never trying?
Never trying. Because by never trying you’ve already failed.
26. If I try to fail, and succeed, which have I done?
You’ve succeed at the process and failed at the product. But a good product is only ever a result of a good process. And no process is without its highs and lows.
27. What’s the one thing I’d like others to remember about me at the end of my life?
That I was kind to them and helped them see things that they couldn’t see before.
28. Does it really matter what others think about me?
Hardly. But that doesn’t mean I don’t care about it. I want my friends and family to think well of me, as I think well of them.
29. To what degree have I actually controlled the course my life has taken?
To an extent. Some of it was outside influence, but most of it was my direct deliberation. I didn’t have to quit my first studies. I didn’t have to go and look for answers when my parents divorced. I didn’t have to do anything. œBut I did. That road was long and hard. The road ahead is long and hard. But it’s full of opportunities for growth and that’s what it’s about. My own fate.
30. When it’s all said and done, will I have said more than I’ve done?
I already do more than I’ve said. At other times I say a little too much. At those times it’s good to remember that my best advice came when I was listening and questioning, not while I was preaching.
Were you answering the questions as you read my answers? Yes? Great! If not, go and do some soul searching yourself. Thanks for reading! Cu next time.