Warren Buffett, Steve Jobs , I am sorry!
I am just one guy with 2 medium followers. Just One guy with poor sleep habits but Always Dreaming and I will just write this piece and hit "publish" on medium anyways.
I read a certain Quote again tonight. It says "Your work is going to fill a Large part of your Life, and the only way to truly be satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to Love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you ll know when you find it"
If I had own those quotes, then I would conclude that my writing has greatly improved and I am definitely doing what I love.
Unfortunately, that’s not my quote because I am still learning the writing craft. Still learning to put my thoughts together the right way.
Well, That's Steve Job's Quote. A very good and true quote. Many understand this Quote and they wouldn't waste their lives doing what they don't love but Its sad to say I am in the part of the world where 9 out of 10 seem to know this quote but don't care or they are just helpless.
Well, I have the first 12 words in Steve's quote ringing EVERYDAY in my head but In my case, I am just helpless.
If anyone is reading this and you are living each day of your life doing what you love and getting paid for it, well you are LUCKY! SO DARN LUCKY!
I am writing this piece, feeling miserable, empty, depressed and ashamed because I have Steve jobs quote in my head but still resuming a job I don't like tomorrow. It's been 2years of spending 12hrs of my day doing this Job and I am resuming again tomorrow after few days break.
Well, may be you are presently accusing me of being a mediocre for working 2years at a job I don't love. Don't judge me.
That's what happens when you are not good enough in a craft you love. Not good enough to put your thoughts in the right way to pay the bills. Not good enough to bring up Ideas that will change the world.
That's what happens when you are only good enough to keep dreaming of making money in a craft you love untill you are good enough to truly actualise your dream. Well, you have to survive before the dream is actualised right?
Warren Buffet said "......I think you are out of your mind if you keep taking jobs that you don’t like because you think it will look good on your resume.......". Warren, I know I might be out of my mind but I am really helpless. What can I do? Don't blame me for feeling miserable in my job but not quitting.
That's what happens when you live in a country where no one cares about what you love.
That's what happens when you live in a country where providing your basic needs is so HARD.
That's what happens when you live in a country without use of credit cards while you have no job.
That's what happens when you have to pay your university fees without the help of the government
That's what happens when you have no plans from government (not even for few months) to help you when you are without a job.
That's what happens when you are learning a craft and you need money to even learn the craft and pay the bills.
That's what happens when Internet is not free or cheap either
That's also what happens to some who are even good enough at the craft they love but are still starving.
Only few have the guts to move ahead and not do what they don’t like even with all these EXCUSES.
Steve, Warren, I am sorry but I am resuming my terrible job tomorrow. Though I wish I am strong enough not to.
If I write again tomorrow, to tell you I quit my job, it means you might not get any written piece again because I might just starve to death and won't be able to pay for my Internet service except a miracle happens.
If I am to make a wish, It will be "Let me have the nerve to quit my job and get so good in the craft I am learning so that people will be willing to pay" and I will be happy for the rest of my life but it's so sad that Wishes are not horses.
Tomorrow, I resume back to a job that will make me feel unfulfilled most of the time.
Tomorrow, I resume back to a job that will deprive me of my reading time.
Tomorrow, I resume back to a job that will deprive me of learning a new craft the way I would have loved to.
Tomorrow, I resume back to a job that Will make me forget about fitness because I have nowhere to run to.
But also, tomorrow, I resume back to a job that will pay my bills and give me little to save so I can buy books to read and learn my craft.
Now I wonder, do I just read warren Buffet and Steve Job’s quote two hundred times till I have enough anger and nerve to tell my boss I QUIT? or should I just focus on the advantage I get in this job and grind through the horrible moments, hoping one day, my dreams will come true?
Well, I have made my decision. Tomorrow, I will be putting Steve’s and Warren’s quote off my mind and play whatever card life throws at me the best way I can. I will resume my job tomorrow while telling myself "Hey, This is Life happening" again.
Steve, Warren, I know you don’t even know I exist, Neither do you care. And May be you will never even come across this piece but I just wanna say "I’M SORRY" for being the 9 out of 10 who knows your quote but trying to put it aside to survive.
I’m sorry I have to put your quotes off my mind. You are never wrong but this is just Life happening to me!
