What’s my purpose?

Provider.

What’s my purpose, without kids?

Creator.

My kids give me unselfish purpose.

My selfish purpose is still there.

Still here.

Still important.

I feel an urge to create.

To make things that challenge myself.

The crux is that my selfish purpose does not currently pay for my unselfish purpose.

Now, age 34, I’m jobless and alone.

I have a close friend nearby who helps me feel above the bottom of my situation.

I have kids whom I love and feel indebted to.

They deserve more than I currently am.

They don’t ask.

I’m the only one making demands on my purpose.

To feel fulfilled, I must actively serve my purpose as creator and provider.

How do I make this happen?

This is my goal.

I can do this; I will figure out how.