oh useless fountain
despite the pennies I tossed
no wish ever came

a lie
on lips and heart
come;
this dark secret.

pride is a monster
you continually feed
I know the truth but
you call it need

everything comes back to this
…when the men make us bleed

these walls are closing in

I’ve suffered it time and again
your sin

…
we remember

sewing seeds of happiness,
and watching as they grow.
smiling as the sun shines…
and feel the cool wind blow.
i want to forget the rest of the world,
and think only of you and me.
happiness only grows
if you plant the seeds.

warm father no more
salt of life, man like steel
I look for him in clouds
and in wine
heal this broken ghost
so that I may
live

I feel like I’m in a hell I can’t escape, so much on my mind not showing on my face. I know you already have these things in your heart and that I could never understand, but I’m going to try to start. After Alton, after Philando… at the mall with my family. And I started to cry because it was just killing me. I wanted to get down on my knees, just to say that I’m sorry. I know this world feels impossible. And I feel partially responsible. What can I do to help the situation we are in…