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Freelance Writer, originally from NY, currently living in Hawaii for the past 15 years.

I have decided to take care of myself first from now on.

I am always there for everyone else. I am the one people can depend on, ask for help, and vent their feelings to whenever needed. For too long, I have put other’s needs in front of my own, even subconsciously, and this hasn’t served me well. In fact, putting myself second has increased my anxiety and depression and led me to lower my self worth.

Too many times I have rushed out to pick someone up when needed, or lent money to a friend, or just been a sounding board for someone else’s problems. It’s tiring to always be the…

Figuring out how to find a purpose and follow happiness

I thought by age 40 I would have it all figured out.

I would be working my dream job, have a great big house, have my finances in order, and be living my best life. When I was 20, I was a mess, but that was ok, I was young and I had all the time in the world, surely I would figure things out eventually.

But 40 came and went (I am now 41), and I was still aimless. I still didn’t have a purpose. I wasn’t following my passion. I was just going through the motions of life…

I don’t write for you. I write for me.

I am writing for myself as a way to manage my mental health. As a person that has struggled with depression and anxiety ever since childhood, I have found that writing serves as an incredible coping mechanism.

Simply getting the thoughts, feelings, and emotions out of my brain and onto the page helps immensely in clearing my anxious, depressed mind. Whenever I make a journal entry or jot some notes, I feel immediate relief or start a new draft.

The psychology world calls this expressive writing. There is loads of research to back up that it helps reduce mental illness…

#3 It’s all a little too overwhelming

Chase your dreams, follow your passion, it’s all the rage lately. There are countless articles, blog posts, and memes that flood your social media feed every time you log onto one of them. It seems so easy, just follow your heart, do what makes you happy and live a full life, so why don’t we do it?

If it were that easy, we would live in a world where everyone was following their passion, we would all be happy as clams, and the world would be better place.

But life as we know it, is not that cut and dry…

#3. Treat yourself to some candy

I have dealt with anxiety for the past 25+ years, it has been a big part of my life for as long as I can remember. In fact, I can’t remember a time that I didn’t have to deal with some sort of anxiety. I can recall having breakdowns as early as kindergarten, though back then it wasn’t considered anxiety, just a tantrum or episode.

Nowadays, I will often find myself with a sudden pit in my stomach, a cold chill running down my spine, and thoughts of impending doom circulating in my head. …

6 inspiring quotes from the Hollywood renaissance man

I just finished reading Jim Carrey’s recent book “Memoirs and Misinformation” and highly recommend it. It is a truly tremendous read that gives you an insight into Carrey’s psyche and how he approaches life. Let me forewarn you that this is not your typical biography or memoir, it does get a little strange at the end, but hey, what would you expect from a prototypical Hollywood funny man.

The book opens with Jim in a dark depressive state, rarely leaving his bedroom, watching TV all day, play-drowning in his pool with his only physical contact being his 2 guard dogs…

How to break free and help yourself

I was, and still am at times a self-saboteur. If there was any way to cut myself off at the knees, I would do it.

I have struggled with depression and anxiety for 25 years, and for the large portion of that time I refused to seek help. I would self medicate, deny my illness, and dig myself a deeper hole to climb out of.

I was sabotaging my wellness by being stubborn and hoping my problems would disappear magically. This self-sabotage only led to worsening my illness and making recovery that much harder.

I can freely admit this now…

Acceptance is tough. Stop denial and get back to living.

It took me over 25 years to officially receive a professional diagnosis for my mental illness. And it was a huge struggle for me to accept my diagnosis once I got it. It was all my own stubborn fault.

I always knew that there was something off with my mental health for many years. It seemed I had a dark cloud hanging over me, lowering my mood and dropping my self-esteem. I was also way more anxious than my peers. I would worry incessantly about the smallest of things, driving myself crazy, often for no reason at all.

For most…

Mental illness is just one aspect of me, it doesn’t need to consume me anymore

Depression and anxiety have been a part of my life since I was a child. I can remember having panic attacks as early as kindergarten. If I wasn’t able to sit next to one of my favorite, “security blanket” people all hell would break loose. I remember specifically that these weren’t normal tantrums, it felt as if my world would fall apart completely if I didn’t sit next to Melissa or Christopher, those were the only two options on earth.

I also recall having a constant depressive state hanging over my head even way back in elementary school. I remember…

Pondering mortality has helped me to live a more positive life.

Like many of us lately, I have been thinking about death a lot more. My mortality always seems to rest on the forefront of my mind.

Existentialist questions continuously run on a loop through my head. Of course it also doesn’t help that the world we live in is quite crazy right now. We are faced with death constantly, on the news, on social media, and in everyday conversation, death surrounds us lately.

Death terrifies me, even writing the word down gives me an uneasiness in my stomach and sends a shiver down my spine. Just writing this article fills…

Michael Joslin

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