Awaiting College

60 days until move in day.

I am from a small town, which means I am from a small high school. So going to a college with 2,000+ people (yes I know that is small for a college, but my high school had like 140 seniors), is a huge transition. I’m really worried about making even one friend other than my room mate. When you have anxiety and are just socially awkward it’s basically impossible for you to make friends. But I will try with everything I have to go out of my way to talk to new people.

My biggest problem is, every time I talk to new people I feel like they are negatively judging me. Even now as I write this I feel like whoever, if anyone, reads this is judging my every word. So to keep my anxiety at a minimum I just don’t talk to new people. I’m worried once I go off to college my depression and anxiety will be at a all time high because I will have no one, it scares the shit out of me. I thought keep a blog and writing every single thing I am feeling will help me through the transition process. I am no where near a professional writer, so you may encounter misspelled words or sentences that don’t make sense but please don’t let it stop you from reading my blog.

More to come when college approaches or whenever I have more random thoughts.