Waking up dead then trying to figure out how the body works with such a primitive communication system. I spent a number of years trying to figure out a belief system that might somewhat jive with what I found on the other side. Most religions have a few bits and pieces hidden within their dogma that are mostly ignored today. Buddha had things mostly together but over the centuries it has become confusion as disciples have dove into rabbit holes. Krishna also has aspects hidden within hidden within hidden within its tales that most breeze past totally unaware of. Many others hit on some of the basic truths, even Zeus and Ra among others hinted at the truths.
We are ‘him’and ‘he’ is we. All is a grand experiment including multiverses where the difference is not tuning but basic tweaks in happenstance. And humans are only but a minor piece in the games of evolution being played out. We come and go through the various lives both good and bad but our souls are constantly learning and growing. Once in a while like the Dalai Lama some retain knowledge past our infancy that can be tapped and grown before it recedes into the recesses of our brain and soul.
So simi-deist Agnostic mainly because God is we.