Things I Told My Therapist Today That Felt Good To Get Off My Chest.
5 min readOct 26, 2022
- “My mother should have aborted me.” Yes, I wholeheartedly believe this. She got pregnant with me in a timeline that doesn’t make sense. I was somehow a “summer love” child that fit between my mother divorcing a nice garbage man that actually cared about my mom and older siblings and her marriage to my younger sibling's dad before I was born. The younger siblings’ dad claims to think I was his until I was 12.
Which doesn’t fit either, but whatever. Lies upon lies. Abuse and neglect. My mother’s need to have a baby every 2 years. She sabotaged me at every turn while bragging about me to her coworkers. Honestly, I don’t know if I was conceived by my mom dating my dad for a summer or her tricking him into getting her pregnant and ditching him.
I don’t understand why she had me only to treat me the way she did. I was a commodity, not a person. - “I am done caring what my maternal side thinks of me. I am okay being the villain in their story…” That was actually followed by “…if that helps them heal.” But that caused me AND my therapist to burst into laughter. We both know they aren’t working on healing themselves, and I was only there to be a punching bag in their lives. I came to the conclusion that I am happy to never have another interaction with almost all of them and would actually love if I never had another interaction with…
