Just a little bit stuck.
I have goals, I have dreams, I have aspirations. I have big goals that I hope to achieve. I make smaller goals to progress further. And yet, here I am left with myself the same as yesterday.
This is because I have a problem. I’m stuck.
I’m stuck in the endless vortex that is the internet. Help, how do I get out?
Yes, I want to accomplish many things. I want to end the day and lay in my bed with the feeling of success. To have wonderful examples of hard work and dedication. I want to end the day with a smile on my face, knowing a job was well done. But instead I’m left with a buzzing brain with scattered thoughts of twitch, reddit, and youtube. Mostly left to think about and envy the success of others.
Every day I sit down on this chair, turn my brain off, and spend five plus hours doing all sorts of unproductive brain dead time wasters. It’s consumed me. I have to find a way out. None of this stuff matters, It’s all irrelevant to the big picture that is my life.
Then why can’t I let it go.
Why can’t I go and do what I set out to do! I want this, This is my dream! It hurts so much to see myself waste all this time. Why is it so hard, it shouldn’t be. If this is what I want to do, then…
What am I doing? What am I doing?
Oh god, what have I been doing?!
STOP! Just stop it all! It’s destroying you, bringing nowhere in life. It’s taking away your motivation to do anything. Slowing leaving you as a husk barely living, fingers trembling above the keyboard. You need to leave it all, start to live a full life, with goals, friends, and a stronger sense of self. Just let it all go.
I can’t let it go. It’s all so nice, so simple. I can just relax, forget about the world for hours.
This is nice.
I think I’ll just tune out for awhile, but only for a little.
Just for a little…