A day that changed it all

MY DIARY — Day 1

All my life i have dreamed of things that were most beautiful and enchanting, I believed in Faith ,In Love !!

As a small girl I followed the moon all night on travel, spoke to the angels and always believed that my“The One” is waiting for me somewhere. Living in a bubble as it seemed i was very happy ,In the journey as i grew up within my dream bubble when reality hits it pains and so it happened to me i got a lot of bumps & I reached a point where i wanted nothing. Just my work became all that i wanted to stick to and go on. But the seed of love was still grounded but too deep for me to nurture it or even realize i have a heart. I started to believe i am not meant for this world and the world isn’t the right place for me. From getting the thoughts of running away or just disappearing somewhere,i was done with myself and fake relationships people surrendered to.

I was working as a designer with a couture design studio in Delhi and was just in a normal survival phase. This phase of my life as i recall was a falling apart phase where i shunned all that i dreamed and i stopped thinking about my dreams. And i decided to exist for my family, I decided come what may now I don’t need anything as my philosophy of finding a like minded dream partner,my “the One” drastically got shattered after realizing i was very different from a lot of people i met and there was no way i want to fool myself about being in love “ after all that was the emotion i respected the most ,so Love to me had to be “Real” and somewhere i realized it was one thing that existed only deep inside my heart.

The part of the world where i stay, The concept marriage is different here you don’t marry because you love someone ,but you marry because your family status and you family backgrounds are in sync and most of the times the boy and the girl have to decide in one small half an hour meeting with a “yes” or a “No” for marriage which is hardly private. Once the Families crosscheck there list of requirements, they ask the Boy and the Girl to have a word with each other and decide. Now with the entire family in attendance and almost sure about this matrimony. It is only a formality for the two to say “yes” You need to have the guts to discard a girl or a boy your family has almost already chosen for you. But very few of us actually have them.and its not so easy to find a fault in an individual in such a short time and even if you do” you are often told all this will settle down and change once you get married!?!

This didn’t happen to me though !! but at that point i knew,My story wasn’t going to be different either and i was not ready to surrender and kill my self in such a process. So i decided to stay bussy and say a good No” to getting married when the time comes. Little did i know there was something else that waited for me in the following pages of my Mystical dreamy Life…..

The day of 14th November something happened that changed everything

CONTINUE……..