For lovers scorned …

In the beginning, everything was great.

From morning kisses to late night love moans. Thoughtful texts to affirm love intentions and calls to relay them in words.

Road trips, long night walks, spontaneous late night drives. Long passionate kisses in comfortable silence, staring at each other, long ass flights across continents snuggled up to each other.

It was lit. It was bliss … till it wasn’t.

Now…

I’m stuck in a web of grief, wondering where it all went wrong. I did it all, for you, yet you left. I don’t understand. I don’t know why. I need to know why. It kills me that I don’t.

Should I have kissed you longer or hugged you tighter? Would it have made you stay?Why did you leave when it all seemed right? Would you stay if it were wrong?

They said “give it your all”, I did, yet I hurt.

The fact is …

You did not deserve me.

Not my love, not my heart, or my deeds.

You had a chance to do right by me but you chose wrong.

And though it hurt, I know it’s right.

For while God was looking out for me, I was for you, but you didn’t care.

So you can leave and never come back.

And I know I’ll hurt for days, weeks or even more; but I’ll be fine.

One day I’ll forget, or maybe I won’t.

Perhaps I’ll forgive you for letting go of all this goodness I gave you that you cast into the dirt, like trash. Only time would tell.

For a day would come, you’ll ardently look for love like mine but you won’t find, because truth be told; they don’t make em like me no more.

And when you realize this, you’ll remember me.

You’ll try to find me, but I won’t be there.

And if you find me, I’ll have healed, maybe found love, maybe moved on.

I’ll be at peace once again, and you’ll be just another distant memory from solace.

I’m kind, so i’ll pray for you. I’ll pray you find a little peace when you beat yourself up that you had me and you lost me.

I was all yours once, yet you played me; or so you thought.

But in reality …

You played yourself.

You lost me.

I’m rare as fuck.

You lost me, and that’s all on you.