Frustrated.

By Jess Rodriguez Williams — Contributing Writer

Art by Jackie Fawn — Provided by Jess Rodriguez Williams

Frustrated by the constraints of my mind,

the fact that I walk in the room and gotta command space, cuz according to colonization,

space ain’t rightfully mines

the fact that patriarchy got me messed up, telling girls in saudi arabia that they can’t go to school,

tellin my home grrrls in the barrio that their worth ain’t nothing unless their stomach is baby full

promoting marriage and child rearing amongst young low income women of color,

as opposed to tellin us that we can grasp a higher conscious and that we have the capacity to inspire another

it’s always someone else’s problem,

fault and excuse that allows for women to put another woman’s capacity aside,

you say you on another level but full of conscious “woke” pride

i got normalized delusions living under white supremacy, cuz if i be addressing every single injustice i see,

these people don’t know what they get when they mess with me,

when they question the strength that is women of color and our flow

it take them all but a second longer glance to see that wisdom we got, the others won’t ever know.

that’s why they scared and second guessin, cuz the power of mi hermanas y curandera blessings are higher than they can ever conceive of my essence.

Frustrated.

cuz they make us fill the void of generations of trauma,

with a colonized mindset, that we deserve to be poor, we just gotta be smarta

they got us fighting over turf and which woman belongs to who,

all in the scheme of trying to distract us from the fat cats droppin bombs on hospitals and schools

got mi compas of afro descent saying that black lives matter.

You hear me? Black Lives Matter.

fighting for the right to breathe, fighting a new set of laws disguised, with racist banter

got indigenous people fighting corporations using them as mascots, what they think, they could just do this shit and ain’t sumthin gonna pop off?

Frustrated.

cuz women and children are being held like prisoners on the southern border, as if the shipment to refill gun demands in latin america didn’t come from a white man’s order

so, Ima check u for a minute

just cuz you buy a headdress dont mean u cultured,

just cuz u paint your face for dia de los muertos don’t mean you have a right to build an altar

just cuz you listen to rap music don’t mean you understand the struggle

just cuz you identify as an intersectional feminist ally don’t mean you humble.

so ima let this be known.

i don’t got time to educate you,

i don’t have a smile for the male privilege you exert,

so you a male feminist?

meanwhile not givin a damn about the women’s mentality and body you hurt.

you want to beat another woman silly cuz she slept with your man?

i’ll talk with you about the historical, social factors that disintegrate a woman’s capacity to only being able to keep a man

ya i’m Frustrated,

cuz white feminism is focusing on equal pay for women, my first thought is,

what type of women?

Frustrated

cuz me cruising in the lgbtq community got me filled with “spicy” adjectives and presumptuous people of interest…

Frustrated.
so damn Frustrated,

with racism, xenophobia, transphobia and countless other oppressions.

Frustrated

with this world cuz you’re seen as weak when you show sincere affection

protesting, learning, eating, sleeping, reading,

Frustrated.

brown, queer, chubby, clever, decolonized and educated.

all i know is,

i’m not gonna die Frustrated,

i’m doing something about it.


This piece was written by Jess Rodriguez Williams as part of the National Latina Institute for Reproductive Health, COLOR (Colorado Organization for Latina Opportunity & Reproductive Rights), & California Latinas for Reproductive Justice’s 7th Annual Latina Week of Action for Reproductive Justice.

Jess Rodriguez Williams is a proud Mexican and Colombian queer, warrior, who is first generation on many levels. Jess is a first generation Colombian American, first generation high school graduate, community college graduate and holder of an AAT degree in Sociology and is currently the first in their family to pursue their Bachelor’s degree in Sociology, at San Francisco State University. Jess is a radical, queer, intersectional feminist, activist, published poet and organizer, who speaks publicly with emphasis on the struggles and triumphs unique to lowincome, women and nonbinary folks of color. Jess actively works to deconstruct their forced assimilation by getting in touch with their ancestral roots and by engaging in communal, radical, queer of color, coalitional spaces as a means of remembering and embracing the power and wisdom passed down through generations. As a lowincome, queer, Latinx, Jess works to encourage other Latinx to be one with their power.


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The National Latina Institute for Reproductive Health is the only national reproductive justice organization dedicated to building Latina power to advance health, dignity, and justice for 28 million Latinas, their families and communities in the United States through leadership development, community mobilization, policy advocacy, and strategic communications.