Me Fucking Too.

Cw: sexual assault

Sophia Akiko is a queer POC writer and educator based in Seattle, Washington.

This is not going to be a kind post.

When I see a social media “movement” started by rich white women who have systematically devalued and dehumanized trans/mentally ill/poor/black/undocumented immigrants/sex workers/PoC/LGBT/genderfluid/gender non-conforming folks, who have spoken over the most vulnerable, who have done nothing in the face of rampant and unforgiving racism, transphobia, xenophobia, genocide,who are abusers themselves and get lauded as the face(s) of (WHITE) feminism, who still get money, who still get a voice, who are, yet again, taking the voices of others to supplement their “movements” while doing nothing, while coating themselves in money and luxuries most will never have, I don’t see myself.

I know many don’t either.

I have told my story so many times, sobbed, screamed, begged for help at hospitals, university, in public, in private — to be stonewalled by well-meaning white people who asked me what I “could have done differently” at the hospital after my assault, or “nice” white fraternity boys who “politely decline” free seminars on sexual assault awareness and then wear tank-tops that promote reproductive violence as a “joke” at parties, at the university where men who commit rape and sexual assault can intimidate survivors in broad daylight and have nothing be done about it.

I see the white women who, even after me telling them that their nice white male friend raped me, stood by him as I tried to choke my panic down with a drink I will never have again, at a bar that is best forgotten.

As a queer survivor, as a survivor of color, one of the hardest things I have learned is that there is no solution in answering to an institution — because they are innately governed by whiteness, power, the binary.

I am not a white woman.

This dialogue does not represent me nor what I went through.

I have answered before and I will answer again.

Now is not my time to answer, but I have never been silent — speaking of which —

There is no such thing as a silent survivor.

Your being alive is a testimony of the utmost perseverance and survival. Your being alive is an act of bravery. Your being alive is enough.

I believe you and I love you.


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