Day 125 — Intensity

When I swim, I tend to just go through the motions. I close my fingers, stretch my arms, kick my legs, breathe every three and so on.

If I’m honest, that gets dull after a while. Swimming has taken up the role of my main exercise in the last year but I’ve not been swimming hard. So I’ve felt like I’ve not been working hard. I’ve been coasting.

The thing is though, I don’t want to coast. I want to feel. I want to work hard. I want to know what I’m doing is paying off. I think it goes back to my fat days and seeing results. What they don’t tell you once you reach your ‘goal weight’ is that you’re never really done. There’s always improvements to be made and I need to feel like I’m headed towards those improvements.

So when I swam with the crew on Saturday Morning I jumped into the deep blue water and did a set that I would never normally dream of. It started with 400m IM. That’s just crazy talk for me on a Saturday but I wanted to work hard. I wanted to feel the swim and felt much better for really putting the effort in. I earned my breakfast that day and that was a feeling that I’ve really missed.