Sometimes, it’s okay.
I started reading a new series called “The Raven Boys” a few weeks earlier. Quite shortly put, it is a supernatural fiction about 4 young people who are in search of a long lost king, who they believe is put to sleep on the ley line, a straight line of energy across the globe. I was reading the third book in the series today, Blue Lily, Lily Blue and came across the following para.
Because it was Noah and no one else, Gansey could admit, “I don’t know what I’ll do if I find him, Noah. I don’t know what I’ll be if I’m not looking for him. I don’t know the first thing about how to be that person again.”
Noah put the clay in Gansey’s hands. “That’s exactly how I feel about the idea of being alive again.”
I began to wonder, we all have that something in life we can’t imagine being without. It may be a thing, a desire, a quest, a person, your career or a million other things. It might be one just thing or ten different ones. But it exists, it’s there.
You can’t remember how you were before it came in your life, neither can you imagine what you would do without it. And hence you create a web of fabrication around yourself. You are so dependent on it that you just can’t let it go. You trust yourself to be weak enough to lean on it for support, to need it.
But then tragedy strikes. Your sphere is in danger of losing it. The time to release it comes and yet you can’t help but hold on, desperately. Hoping for ‘anything but this’. For the reason that you would do anything and everything to keep it within your world.
The truth it, whatever it is that you think you can’t live without, you can. Because there will be a million things you will lose over the course of time.
But there will be a billion other things you can find, sometimes better, sometimes great.
Originally published at scarletspirit7.wordpress.com on August 23, 2015.