The 54th Deadline: Gamble
Julius Caesar once said, translated from Latin, “The die is cast.”
For me, I think it is about time I started to gamble more in general. Life is too short, and I have always played things way too safe. I have been too afraid to leave my comfort zone by so much that I have fallen behind, and only a drastic and daring maneuver will jump me ahead of where I need to be and then some.
It is partly due to my actual anxiety and lack of confidence, but this has always been my nature for a long time.
Timid. Unsure. Quiet.
A lot of these adjectives and more would describe my younger self to a T. Simply put, I was a nerdy kid who was too hesitant to raise his hand in class to answer questions, let alone be bold enough to make a complete fool out of myself and not care about what others would think.
I have mostly been that person who wants to hide in the corner, away from the limelight and away from all of those judgmental eyes. Too bashful and lacking a backbone, I just wanted to coast through life behind the scenes.
I guess I hoped that I could get by for the rest of my days, not needing to toughen up and learn how to be truly independent. I was thankfully wrong. I have grown stronger these past few years, and the risk taker I have always needed to be is starting to emerge. Better late than never, right?
Go big or go home, as they say. Especially lately, I need to go big or else I will be doomed to more days of mediocrity.
So as I approach this next phase of life, full of mystery and uncertainty of whether things will pan out with what I envision, I hold this metaphorical die in my hand.
Nervous, trembling with reluctance, but full of hope that things will work out, I have to cast this die forward with complete faith in the unknown.
The die is cast.
