The 54th Deadline: Newfound Optimism


The 54th Deadline: Regardless of failure or success, you learn. Life grants people so many chances to get it right.


I used to be the worst kind of Debbie Downer you could imagine.

Dour.

Unpleasant.

Always negative.

Brimming full of contempt.

Jealous.

List out every kind of self-detrimental adjective, and I probably exuberated each of them at some point. I was a mess because I allowed myself to feel like garbage each and every day. Instead of trying to change things for the better, I would dwell on the missed opportunities of the past. I let things fester, I beat myself up on a daily basis, called myself a loser and started to believe everyone around me that I was a failure.

But that was then. As I write this, this is my new chance at a better “now.”

Now is the time for a bigger shift toward greater things.

Now is the time for a mindset tuneup to develop some mental fortitude for any and all setbacks that may occur down the road.

Now is the time I set out to become the ultimate version of myself.

This positivity is the kind of aura I want to radiate whenever possible. I want to be a shining example of hope incarnate. Did I have a particularly outstanding life growing up? No way. Not even close. I did not have the worst life, but I had always underperformed in many regards. I would undermine my potential. I would shoot myself in the foot before I would even begin. Half of the time, I just took the easiest path possible — I did not even bother trying.

Instead of taking the risks I would need to grow as a person, to enrich my soul and to be a more rounded person — I opted for not trying.

A Different Direction
 I have been down that dark path far too many times. I have instilled myself with all sorts of toxic, vile thoughts. I crippled my sense of accomplishment because the despair became too much to bear. But I had to persevere. I had to strengthen my resolve to squeak on by — just enough. Just enough… Little by little, I made it a bit further. Before I knew it, I survived. I had made it!

Life has taught me how to be optimistic. This is the embodiment of hope and having faith in things panning out. You have to visualize and then put into practice what it will take to make every random achievement worthwhile. Each victory, big or small, adds up. And sooner or later, you get to reap the rewards. The payday will come, and I am more than eager to cash in when that moment shows up.

Keep going.

Keep trying.

Keep fighting the good fight.

I want to be living proof that dreams can and will come true.

“Hope is my catalyst.” — Nhan Pham


Originally published at The 54th Deadline.

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