The 54th Deadline: Reflections

Every day, I find myself wondering if I even like the person staring back at me in the mirror. To be honest, there are days I definitely don’t like myself. In many ways, I don’t think I am as ahead in life as I should be.

Rightfully so, the people who tend to advance the furthest often show the most gumption. For me, a lot of setbacks took place at the worst moments. Still, they were also learning experiences (albeit, some were more painful and discouraging than others).

However, the inferiority complex always rears its ugly head at times as well.

You’re not good enough — you don’t deserve this, you aren’t ready, you aren’t this or that…

There are so many ways to cut off your own momentum, so many methods to take all of the wind underneath your sails and just, POOF, make it all disappear like it was never there.

As a result, you get mentally stranded. Your sense of progress has halted. What can you do?

Finding Your Ideal Reflection

I’ll tell you what you do — you keep going. Somehow. Somehow… Just find a way. Find a solution. Don’t give up. You can’t give up unless it’s truly game over.

There are so many things I know I can do every day. So many random actions. So many random bits to make sense of it all.

I can do it. I will do it. I can. I MUST.

I want to be able to look at myself in the mirror someday, with pride, and tell myself that you look good. You have done it. You did it. You achieved so much after suffering so much in your own particular ways.

Ultimately, this is one of my dreams. I can only become something based on what I put into it. For me, this is going to take further work.

“Progress is perseverance.” — Nhan Pham


Originally published at The 54th Deadline.