The 54th Deadline: Too Many Directions

Janis (Glow)

Art by Hans C. Chow


If there is one thing I am guilty of if I had to be completely honest, it’s too “ambitious” for my own good at times. Don’t get me wrong. Ambition is an ideal trait to possess, but too much of it without a single destination in mind can be quite counterproductive.

I always want to do more, but then I exhaust my willpower trying to spread myself across multiple areas.

Writing.

Video editing.

Taking more time to research…

Among other things…

I lack focus. I just gimp myself by being too willing to overload my plate so to speak. But you can only indulge so much before you get full. It just defeats the purpose when the aim is to better yourself as a whole.

On the one hand, I obviously want to be “good” at something. Heck, at least if we are talking about my ultimate ambition, I want to be “good” at a lot of things.

But I will never achieve mastery at this rate just dabbling. I can’t be where I need to be if I am too busy being dragged into multiple directions. I don’t have multiple clones running around (that would be neat, though).

Finding a Home

I think I wander too much in life. I am just not in the right spot because, mentally speaking, I am just floating around without a clear place in mind in lots of facets.

Some people can journey through life on one track. That’s the easier route. It may be limiting, but it is easier in this sense that you can autopilot your way toward whatever you were destined to do.

I really do want to find that home…

That place (both literal and figurative) that I know deep down in my heart that it’s where I ultimately belong.

Someday.

“Progress is perseverance.” — Nhan Pham


Originally published at The 54th Deadline.